We met in 6th grade. I was instantly drawn to you. It felt as if we were old friends. At that time, I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and constantly had suicidal thoughts. You were my safe haven. While I was in your presence, my problems and anxiety just seemed to dissipate.

I remember wanting to hang out with you during lunch at school and after school rushing home to pick up the phone to call you. We would talk for hours -everyday! 

Naturally, I fell in love. I couldn’t get enough of you. You never judged me and always listened. I felt like a kid my age when I was with you . You always managed to ground me with your simple kind words. My love for you grew more each and everyday. My self esteem was too low to ever admit I was in love with you. I didn’t feel good enough. I wasn’t good enough. I decided I couldn’t tell you. I didn’t want to be selfish and make our friendship awkward. 

Our friendship grew and we became best friends. We laughed and enjoyed each other’s company. We even got to dance together at a dance recital.

But, one day you moved away. You moved to another school and just like that my best friend was gone. Shortly after, you moved to another country. You moved away and our love and friendship was put to the test. I always kept your number and we always managed to stay in touch. Our friendship withstood the test of time.

When you would visit for the winter, it was as if no time had passed by. We would pick up right where we left off. I always considered you my 1st love & best friend. Our friendship was unique. We could hang out and laugh for hours. Sometimes we would just vent to one another about our partners at the time. You’re the only person I ever made a real effort to hang out with every time.

I always thought to myself I could lose anyone, but not you. Our friendship was just too special.

Falling in love all over again

2017 – 2018 life happened and you came back. It was 1hr 30mins away from me but you moved back. You said this time you were staying. After being gone 8 years.

Our friendship grew and it felt even more special. We would give each other advice, we would support each other emotionally and vibe together. We learned so much more about each other. I thought I knew you like the back of my hand, I quickly became infatuated with the depth of your soul. I didn’t know too many people who could enjoy something simple like a sunset or liked engaging in deep conversations about life. We were so alike. It was obvious because we were best friends but it was much deeper than that. It was a genuine connection. 

I’ll never forget when close friends would constantly say  “you guys are going to end up together.” It seemed like a foreign idea. After all I did have over 9 years to train my emotions and burry them at the bottom of the sea. I didn’t think they’d ever resurface again. It was too painful the 1st time around. 

But one day I texted you to tell you..

Me:  “Hey everyone keeps telling me we’re going to end up together?!”

You: “I was just talking to my cousin about that!!”

Me: “About what?!”

You: “I was telling her I feel that way”

Me: ???? (mind going 1,000,000 miles an hour) okay. That’s weird huh, anyway talk to you later. 

After that talk things got a bit awkward. Until I went to visit you. It was just you and me and we went out for a drink. We had lots of fun. We laughed and talked like we were 11 years old again. Later that night we went to your backyard. We were playing music and talking about life. It was about 2:00 am when I decided to look up at the stars. I was looking at the stars in amazement and you walked over and joined me.

I began pointing out Orion’s belt and other stars and we just stood there, both of us in awe. It was at that moment I looked over to you and I felt this overwhelming urge to kiss you. I was in love. Everything I had buried had resurfaced. I put my arm around your waist and your mom came outside to ask if we were going to sleep already “hahahaha” I immediately let go of your waist and we all went to sleep. LOL. 

Red Chinese String Theory

The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of place, time, or circumstances. This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmate or a destined partner.

As time went by we realized. None of this was a coincidence. We were born in the same hospital and delivered by the same doctor. We discovered we have the same birthmark. We had a similar values. We share the same love for the ocean. It was as if I got to design you. You are perfect for me. The best part is you are kind and loving.   

We had the opportunity to try psychedelics together, which brought us closer than ever. We met each other on a deeper level and our connection grew stronger. 

I realized, people like you come along once in a lifetime. Not everyone gets to meet their soulmate, not everyone gets to be with their best friend. But if you do, it’s a feeling like no other. It’s like being on cloud 9 and never coming down. It’s so beautiful that the existence of God is undeniable. We planned this many lifetimes ago.

You feel like home. Time is non existent. Everything is more colorful, food tastes better, music sounds better when I am with you. You add this extra flare to life that makes it more elegant. 

We’ve waited many lifetimes for this and it’s so worth it.

it’s only right we spend the rest of this lifetime together. As we were given the privilege to watch each other grow. I can’t wait until the day you take my last name and say I do. 

I Love you because you’re kind.

I love you because you’re vulnerable. 

I love you for the person you’ve become.

I could replace anyone but not you. You are so special to me. You have had a huge impact on my life- growing up and now as an adult. I wouldn’t trade you for the world. You’re the cherry on top. Thank you for everything and remember I’ll find you in every lifetime.